Trust

Lots of New Year posts going round. Lots of looking back and looking ahead and mulling. Lots of that inside my head too, but this year, I wasn't at all sure I wanted to choose a particular word or theme for 2016. My 2015 word, "enough", didn't really work for me. And it was hard finding something to hold me up when I was feeling so down.

Over the past week I've been feeling more optimistic, though, and getting a better sense of where I'm at and where I want to go this year. My goals were already set. But the word thing, that's more about emotions, and that's hard to pin down. I had a bunch of feelings floating around in my head, and I kept plucking words out of that mix, trying them on for size. Kindness. Magic. Forwards. Joy. Nothing was right. Until the word came to me in quite a separate conversation.

My word for 2016 is trust. Trust myself. Trust the universe. Trust the process. There's magic and kindness and joy in it. And that's where I'm at. 

This is where it came from: Elfling wanted to know what this song was about. (Both kids keep asking me this of every song they hear. Quite challenging, sometimes.) This song is pretty special to me. When I was pregnant the first time, I was terrified. I was not at all sure I could be a good mother. This song made me feel that everything was going to be okay. And it is.